Whether you make New Year’s Resolutions or not, there is something about the turn of the calendar to a brand spanking new year that gets us all a little more hopeful for a better outcome. Two Thousand Twelve wasn’t necessarily a bad year for me, but it definitely wasn’t what I thought it was. It started off with me having started a new position at work that was quite an experience. I felt on top of the world and terrified at the same time. My husband and I were barely connecting and I often wondered what was wrong with me. I was getting sick a lot. I did some travel- Vegas and Boulder, CO. When the fifth month of the year rolled around, I was burnt out with stress and uncertainty. I decided to take care of myself!
That’s what I’ve been doing for the majority of the rest of this beautiful 2012. I’ve reconciled with my husband and I’m happier than I ever have been with our relationship. It took a lot of looking inward to find forgiveness and love. I’ve been eating more cleanly and getting more exercise. I’ve come back to my first love- writing. I write every single day. I’ve set some boundaries with people, but I have so far to go. I’m trying to find what makes me tick.
Hello, 2013! This year is special because it’s exactly ten years since I’ve graduated high school and also ten years since I met who is now my husband. TEN YEARS! Man, time flies. So here’s what I wish for this upcoming year:
1. ACCEPT instead of judging. This will be a tough one for me because I have a natural inclination to write people’s stories for them. I see someone and I concoct what they must be. Defining and labeling a person is a speciality, albeit not one that I’m proud of it. Next time I catch myself doing it, I gotta slap my hand and say, ” Cut that out, Chanel.”
2. MORE ME TIME! This can be a lot of things. Walking, journaling, blogging, shopping, bubble baths, music, nature, spa, buying myself something small.
3. LOSING WEIGHT. I make this resolution every year. I did fairly well in 2010 with losing a total of 55 pounds. I was immensely proud of myself and I will do it again. Only this time, I have a very hefty goal. I’m going big (or, small in this case) or going home. My goal is a total of 85-90 lbs. Yes, I want to be thin, but I also strive for healthy.
4. FULFILLING WORK. I’ve been looking for work for quite a while now! It’s been much tougher than I imagined. But I know that there is a plan for me. I’m actually going into this year with much better energy and a more positive outlook than I have any other year. I know that I have the skill set and the know how to succeed and I will.
5. COOK MORE! I’ve been cooking much more than I ever have and I will continue that trend. As a type this, I have a lasagna in the oven. ( MY FIRST!) Eating out is not the way to go when your other resolution is to lose weight. So I’ve been researching healthier alternatives and recipes. Even if no one eats it but me, I will make healthy food.