So much has happened since I last wrote here on this blog. I’ve started a job which I hope leads to fulfilling my passion. I’ve taken on more responsibilities, most of which are in conjunction with who I want to be and what I need to do to achieve that. I have allowed myself to let the universe provide me with opportunities and I’ve ran toward them instead of turning my back on them out of fear. Fear has stopped me from a great deal of things and I’m sick of standing behind it saying, ” If only…” There will never be another day that is better than today. Today is all we have.
If there is one thing I’ve learned from being in program for my eating disorder, it’s that you take it one day at a time. If today doesn’t bring forth all the spoils, work as hard as you can to make them happen tomorrow. I still never give myself a break, but the people in my life do. They provide me with a cushion of love and support and make suggestions as to how I can do things better. Suggestions are so much better than demands. The demands I place on myself. Silly me still striving for perfection and falling on my face each and every time. The places I could go if I just let myself GO!
My journey feels so much more rich than it used to. It used to fill like an empty shopping basket and now I feel like I’m just stuffing in more beautiful garments. I feel like I’m allowed to be more authentically me. I don’t have to hide so much and I can definitely call bullshit if I need to. I’m feeling lighter.