I’ve never been one to sit back and wait. I get angry when I have to wait in a line at the store too long. I can’t stand to hear someone ramble, I want to scream ” GET TO THE POINT!” I don’t appreciate commercials. I often flip between channels because I don’t have time to wait for the program to come back on. I multi-task daily. I’m on my phone, computer, reading or watching tv all at the same time. Right now I’m not working at a conventional job but when I was, I wanted to make the sale, wrap it up as quickly as I could and move on to the next one.
Now with having had some time to reflect on what is causing so much stress and anxiety in my life, I can see that I’m very much a person who wants to rush things. I would rush my dogs on their walk, I would eat quickly, and I want it done, done and done. I guess I always figured that the quicker I got it done, the more quickly I could move onto something else. I guess it was my way of telling those around me that I was productive, a go-getter, someone you could rely on in a pinch.
I am all those things, albeit a much calmer more patient version. Just this morning, I let my dogs sniff whatever they wanted to sniff without yanking on their leash to ” come on already!” I have learned to be patient with myself on my journey to eat healthier, exercise more. I’ve learned that patience creates a space for you to actually be present in the moment. Before I was never present, just rushing through each day.
It’s a work in progress… one I’ll continue to be patient with.